I'm actually struggling to construct sentences here. I type half-sentences and delete them, repeatedly. It's no surprise it took me a while to blog about it. I have been contemplating for a whole year whether or not I should even talk about it... or how even. But I've been seeing a lot of quotes on my feed lately about how what you see on social media is only half of a person's story... and it could not be more accurate. 


Last year was a wonderful year for LMN but behind the scenes, around June, we found out that it was not possible for us to have children. IVF was not even an option; adoption was the only way. We were trying straight after we got married (no rest for the wicked! haha!) but it was just not happening. We knew it in our hearts that something was wrong. It didn't help that every time I was ill or every time we met a relative, they would ask if I was pregnant already. I did not appreciate that at all. Stuff like this can be a sensitive subject to some people, and it was for me. Some people were getting pregnant like they were catching the damn flu, but it wasn't like that for us. We were devastated and heart-broken. So to those who think my uterus was your business, no thanks to you.

So yes, back to June 2016. When we found out, we were shattered. But after a while... I stopped feeling sad about it. I actually feel liberated. I mean, we both cried when the doctor shared the unfortunate news and the days after, but it was the closure I needed to set my soul free. Now I can move on, and focus on adopting. The amount of support from family and friends... was ridiculously remarkable. My grandmother was pretty cool about it. She was like "Oh, that's okay... we'll just adopt. It's fine..." and god do I love her for that because that's all I wanted to hear. It's so much better than "Don't give up. Don't believe in doctors". Like... can you just... shut up? I get furious when I hear people say that. "Naik Valak".  I don't know why. I know that anything can happen. Anything is possible. But I can't sit around and hope because it hurts.  And you know what? We're the ones who get hurt.



Anyway, as I was saying, life goes on. There's no lemon so sour that you can't make something resembling lemonade (a quote from This Is Us that resonates with me). You just have to believe that everything will be okay. And everything is exactly how it should be. It's all part of a grander plan and there is absolutely no point in fixating on this one small problem when you have so many other things to be grateful for. Somewhere out there, our child is being born/conceived. Mum and Dad are patiently waiting for you, baby. 

But in the mean time... Mum and Dad are gonna travel to faraway places and focus on realizing our dreams. I'm going to make Dad buy me all the expensive bags and shoes I need before he starts spending it all on you. We are going to be obnoxiously selfish until we're maxed out on selfishness before your arrival. 






I always thought timing was a b*tch. But it isn't. Timing is always right. And I know... right now... I am exactly where I need to be. I hope you know that too. 


Love,



Maktub: It Is Written

Wednesday, 10 May 2017

I'm actually struggling to construct sentences here. I type half-sentences and delete them, repeatedly. It's no surprise it took me a while to blog about it. I have been contemplating for a whole year whether or not I should even talk about it... or how even. But I've been seeing a lot of quotes on my feed lately about how what you see on social media is only half of a person's story... and it could not be more accurate. 


Last year was a wonderful year for LMN but behind the scenes, around June, we found out that it was not possible for us to have children. IVF was not even an option; adoption was the only way. We were trying straight after we got married (no rest for the wicked! haha!) but it was just not happening. We knew it in our hearts that something was wrong. It didn't help that every time I was ill or every time we met a relative, they would ask if I was pregnant already. I did not appreciate that at all. Stuff like this can be a sensitive subject to some people, and it was for me. Some people were getting pregnant like they were catching the damn flu, but it wasn't like that for us. We were devastated and heart-broken. So to those who think my uterus was your business, no thanks to you.

So yes, back to June 2016. When we found out, we were shattered. But after a while... I stopped feeling sad about it. I actually feel liberated. I mean, we both cried when the doctor shared the unfortunate news and the days after, but it was the closure I needed to set my soul free. Now I can move on, and focus on adopting. The amount of support from family and friends... was ridiculously remarkable. My grandmother was pretty cool about it. She was like "Oh, that's okay... we'll just adopt. It's fine..." and god do I love her for that because that's all I wanted to hear. It's so much better than "Don't give up. Don't believe in doctors". Like... can you just... shut up? I get furious when I hear people say that. "Naik Valak".  I don't know why. I know that anything can happen. Anything is possible. But I can't sit around and hope because it hurts.  And you know what? We're the ones who get hurt.



Anyway, as I was saying, life goes on. There's no lemon so sour that you can't make something resembling lemonade (a quote from This Is Us that resonates with me). You just have to believe that everything will be okay. And everything is exactly how it should be. It's all part of a grander plan and there is absolutely no point in fixating on this one small problem when you have so many other things to be grateful for. Somewhere out there, our child is being born/conceived. Mum and Dad are patiently waiting for you, baby. 

But in the mean time... Mum and Dad are gonna travel to faraway places and focus on realizing our dreams. I'm going to make Dad buy me all the expensive bags and shoes I need before he starts spending it all on you. We are going to be obnoxiously selfish until we're maxed out on selfishness before your arrival. 






I always thought timing was a b*tch. But it isn't. Timing is always right. And I know... right now... I am exactly where I need to be. I hope you know that too. 


Love,



Being on leave meant that I had extra time to do my make-up. On a usual workday, I just have enough time for skincare, cc-cream and concealer, and then I try to do my eyeliner, mascara, blusher, contour, highlighter and brows in the car. If you know the roads in Brunei well, you would know how difficult of a task that is, hence I always end up with unintentional thick eyeliner. (But there are days when I just cannot be bothered and end up getting a million 'are you feeling well?' questions and 'you look tired' remarks! SIGH!)

It feels so good to be able to wake up in the morning and do my face properly. I thought I would have been more creative and experimental this week but no... I stuck with the same make-up routine every single day and if you continue scrolling down you'll see the products that I have been loving (and one odd useless mascara you should never buy!).





1. IT Cosmetics CC Cream in Medium
I cannot even begin to comprehend how much I adore this product. It's so difficult to find a good base these days and I think I'm forever going to use this. I also mix it with my foundations and it makes the formula less tacky and runny (which has always been my issue with using foundation in this weather). 





2. NARS Soft Matte Complete Concealer in Custard
 Surprisingly, I quite enjoy this. It has good coverage and is creamy enough that it's easy to apply. I use this under my eyes and on top of my blemishes. I like it better than the Radiant Creamy Concealer too. I have heard that the Tarte Shape Tape Contour Concealer is better than this so I cannot wait to try that out!





3. Charlotte Tilbury Eyes to Mesmerise in Marie Antoinette all over the lid.
Love this. I don't get some reviews that complain about this creasing because it does not crease at all on my lids and my lids are like... greasy central.

4. Coco Eyeshadow from the Huda BeautyRose Gold Textured Shadows in the outer corner and into the crease.
I'm still trying to find good use out of this palette. I don't really look good with reddish eyeshadow and the chunks of glitter aren't that flattering on my eyelids sometimes but I am determined to make it work! Coco is surprisingly turning into my go-to eyeshadow. Sometimes I just use this all over the lid and call it a day.





5. The Face Shop Ink Graffiti Brush Pen Liner
I bought this during the SCB Flash Deals promotion in January. It's not a bad product but I think there are better eyeliners in the market that are more black. I still use it for work though, especially when I don't want my liner to be so prominent.

6. Shu Uemura Eyelash Curler

7. Blinc Mascara
Yeah. Skip this. I put it on and I can't even see it. When I spend money on something, especially on mascara, I want you to be able to see it from a mile away. Plus, it's super watery that you cannot afford to blink (ironic, given the name) or else you'll make a mess around your eyes. Ugh. Really hate this.





8. Benefit Brow Zings - I only use the wax bit; I rarely use the powder. 
I've had this since 2015 (yea ew I know). But I have since bought a new one (shade no. 5 was recommended to me since they've re-done the entire brow range but it seems a tad bit lighter and I'm not sure if I like it or not) and I'm going to start on that pretty soon because I do not want my brows to catch a disease.






9. NARS Blush in Taj Mahal
This colour scares a lot of people. It is super pigmented that you only need to dip your stipling brush ever so lightly or you'll risk looking like a clown. Taj Mahal will always be one of my favourite blushers. I have been using this since my second year of university and no matter how many blushers I've bought since, I always come back to this one. It gives me that sun-kissed glow and it probably even looked better when I was a little more tanned back then.

10. Kevyn Aucoin Sculpting Powder in Medium
I use this to contour my cheekbones. I'm running out of this and will definitely repurchase on Cult Beauty.

11. Charlotte Tilbury Filmstar Bronze and Glow
I use the bronzer to contour my nose and the highlighter on my cheekbones, brow bone, upper lip... gosh if only I could bathe in that stuff. The highlighter is my absolute favourite... and I own ABH's Glow Kit in Gleam and Becca's Champagne Pop fyi.






12. Charlotte Tilbury Airbrush Flawless Finish in Fair
I set my entire face with this powder. I love it. It probably lasts a bit more than 6 hours before my forehead becomes shiny, which isn't too bad. I do always want to come back to the Laura Mercier Transparent Loose Powder because it gives such a lovely finish but... I don't know. Should I? 






13. Charlotte Tilbury Lip Cheat in Pillowtalk
My favourite lip pencil. I'm so bummed I didn't manage to get the lipstick version of this. Anyone know how I can get them?

14. Charlotte Tilbury Hot Lips in Kim K. W.
Too pale on its own. But with Pillowtalk, it looks superb!



Lastly

15. Charlotte Tilbury Luxury Palette in Fallen Angel
I just use the champagne colour for my inner corner highlight. (As you can see... the black eyeshadow has popped out and it made quite a mess.)

Voila! That's my face for you!






Love,




Holiday Make-up

Monday, 24 April 2017

Being on leave meant that I had extra time to do my make-up. On a usual workday, I just have enough time for skincare, cc-cream and concealer, and then I try to do my eyeliner, mascara, blusher, contour, highlighter and brows in the car. If you know the roads in Brunei well, you would know how difficult of a task that is, hence I always end up with unintentional thick eyeliner. (But there are days when I just cannot be bothered and end up getting a million 'are you feeling well?' questions and 'you look tired' remarks! SIGH!)

It feels so good to be able to wake up in the morning and do my face properly. I thought I would have been more creative and experimental this week but no... I stuck with the same make-up routine every single day and if you continue scrolling down you'll see the products that I have been loving (and one odd useless mascara you should never buy!).





1. IT Cosmetics CC Cream in Medium
I cannot even begin to comprehend how much I adore this product. It's so difficult to find a good base these days and I think I'm forever going to use this. I also mix it with my foundations and it makes the formula less tacky and runny (which has always been my issue with using foundation in this weather). 





2. NARS Soft Matte Complete Concealer in Custard
 Surprisingly, I quite enjoy this. It has good coverage and is creamy enough that it's easy to apply. I use this under my eyes and on top of my blemishes. I like it better than the Radiant Creamy Concealer too. I have heard that the Tarte Shape Tape Contour Concealer is better than this so I cannot wait to try that out!





3. Charlotte Tilbury Eyes to Mesmerise in Marie Antoinette all over the lid.
Love this. I don't get some reviews that complain about this creasing because it does not crease at all on my lids and my lids are like... greasy central.

4. Coco Eyeshadow from the Huda BeautyRose Gold Textured Shadows in the outer corner and into the crease.
I'm still trying to find good use out of this palette. I don't really look good with reddish eyeshadow and the chunks of glitter aren't that flattering on my eyelids sometimes but I am determined to make it work! Coco is surprisingly turning into my go-to eyeshadow. Sometimes I just use this all over the lid and call it a day.





5. The Face Shop Ink Graffiti Brush Pen Liner
I bought this during the SCB Flash Deals promotion in January. It's not a bad product but I think there are better eyeliners in the market that are more black. I still use it for work though, especially when I don't want my liner to be so prominent.

6. Shu Uemura Eyelash Curler

7. Blinc Mascara
Yeah. Skip this. I put it on and I can't even see it. When I spend money on something, especially on mascara, I want you to be able to see it from a mile away. Plus, it's super watery that you cannot afford to blink (ironic, given the name) or else you'll make a mess around your eyes. Ugh. Really hate this.





8. Benefit Brow Zings - I only use the wax bit; I rarely use the powder. 
I've had this since 2015 (yea ew I know). But I have since bought a new one (shade no. 5 was recommended to me since they've re-done the entire brow range but it seems a tad bit lighter and I'm not sure if I like it or not) and I'm going to start on that pretty soon because I do not want my brows to catch a disease.






9. NARS Blush in Taj Mahal
This colour scares a lot of people. It is super pigmented that you only need to dip your stipling brush ever so lightly or you'll risk looking like a clown. Taj Mahal will always be one of my favourite blushers. I have been using this since my second year of university and no matter how many blushers I've bought since, I always come back to this one. It gives me that sun-kissed glow and it probably even looked better when I was a little more tanned back then.

10. Kevyn Aucoin Sculpting Powder in Medium
I use this to contour my cheekbones. I'm running out of this and will definitely repurchase on Cult Beauty.

11. Charlotte Tilbury Filmstar Bronze and Glow
I use the bronzer to contour my nose and the highlighter on my cheekbones, brow bone, upper lip... gosh if only I could bathe in that stuff. The highlighter is my absolute favourite... and I own ABH's Glow Kit in Gleam and Becca's Champagne Pop fyi.






12. Charlotte Tilbury Airbrush Flawless Finish in Fair
I set my entire face with this powder. I love it. It probably lasts a bit more than 6 hours before my forehead becomes shiny, which isn't too bad. I do always want to come back to the Laura Mercier Transparent Loose Powder because it gives such a lovely finish but... I don't know. Should I? 






13. Charlotte Tilbury Lip Cheat in Pillowtalk
My favourite lip pencil. I'm so bummed I didn't manage to get the lipstick version of this. Anyone know how I can get them?

14. Charlotte Tilbury Hot Lips in Kim K. W.
Too pale on its own. But with Pillowtalk, it looks superb!



Lastly

15. Charlotte Tilbury Luxury Palette in Fallen Angel
I just use the champagne colour for my inner corner highlight. (As you can see... the black eyeshadow has popped out and it made quite a mess.)

Voila! That's my face for you!






Love,




Thavia is a brand that resonates with me. They do a pretty good job elevating the basic wear into contemporary fashion. Just like the reconstructed shirts that have made it big until today, Thavia takes the ordinary and comes up with something fresh. The Eden top is my favourite piece from Thavia currently. We all love a good white blazer and the cold-shoulder trend, but who knew I would be obsessed with their lovechild.

Below are 5 ways of how I'd style it. Mind you, I did not include a denim number because we all know that's the first thing I'd gravitate towards--my good ol' skinny jeans. 


1. Warrior Princess

The Eden Cut Shoulder Top is a rather masculine piece but yet alluring. To balance out its ruggedness, I paired it with a tulip skirt that softens the look. However, as the skirt is made from songket, it doesn't affect the structure and strength too much. I still prefer keeping it a bit boyish. 






2. The White Rabbit

How could I not have an all-white outfit? The cutouts just make it less predictable and gives a fun spin to the regular white pantsuit.






3. Checkmate

Throw in a pair of formal pants, heels and a clutch and you're ready to go to a (what's the Malay version of a) cocktail party! But I, being boring of course, chose to pair it with my black trousers and my trusty Black Olive dUCk.






4.  Break Rules

Okay this is a tad bit outside my comfort zone. I chose not to listen to rules and paired it with palazzo pants. Now, if it were any other boxy jacket, you may end up looking like a tent, but when your shoulders are exposed like that, it doesn't seem all that bad. At the end of the day, you do you and own it!

To take it down a notch, you could even wear flats, espadrilles and sneakers but I personally don't like it on me (although when my feet are killing me, flats are godsend) because these pants make me look shorter than usual.






5. Casual Sunday

On days when you feel like dressing up but have no willpower to put in any effort, take your statement piece out and pair it with your lazy pants and a pair of sneakers, and get on with your day!





There are of course other ways you could wear this baby:

With a belt.




Opened... with a belt.



And the list goes on! Really diggin' the versatility of Eden. So happy that I can get a lot of wear out of it!

Check out more from Thavia on FashionValet and their instagram!



Love,



How I Style: Eden

Wednesday, 12 April 2017

Thavia is a brand that resonates with me. They do a pretty good job elevating the basic wear into contemporary fashion. Just like the reconstructed shirts that have made it big until today, Thavia takes the ordinary and comes up with something fresh. The Eden top is my favourite piece from Thavia currently. We all love a good white blazer and the cold-shoulder trend, but who knew I would be obsessed with their lovechild.

Below are 5 ways of how I'd style it. Mind you, I did not include a denim number because we all know that's the first thing I'd gravitate towards--my good ol' skinny jeans. 


1. Warrior Princess

The Eden Cut Shoulder Top is a rather masculine piece but yet alluring. To balance out its ruggedness, I paired it with a tulip skirt that softens the look. However, as the skirt is made from songket, it doesn't affect the structure and strength too much. I still prefer keeping it a bit boyish. 






2. The White Rabbit

How could I not have an all-white outfit? The cutouts just make it less predictable and gives a fun spin to the regular white pantsuit.






3. Checkmate

Throw in a pair of formal pants, heels and a clutch and you're ready to go to a (what's the Malay version of a) cocktail party! But I, being boring of course, chose to pair it with my black trousers and my trusty Black Olive dUCk.






4.  Break Rules

Okay this is a tad bit outside my comfort zone. I chose not to listen to rules and paired it with palazzo pants. Now, if it were any other boxy jacket, you may end up looking like a tent, but when your shoulders are exposed like that, it doesn't seem all that bad. At the end of the day, you do you and own it!

To take it down a notch, you could even wear flats, espadrilles and sneakers but I personally don't like it on me (although when my feet are killing me, flats are godsend) because these pants make me look shorter than usual.






5. Casual Sunday

On days when you feel like dressing up but have no willpower to put in any effort, take your statement piece out and pair it with your lazy pants and a pair of sneakers, and get on with your day!





There are of course other ways you could wear this baby:

With a belt.




Opened... with a belt.



And the list goes on! Really diggin' the versatility of Eden. So happy that I can get a lot of wear out of it!

Check out more from Thavia on FashionValet and their instagram!



Love,



I attended a motivational talk once and a certain video struck a chord with me. It was a video on the 'buts of life' and how the word BUT can be such a dream killer. We shield ourselves from things we fear by using this three-letter word. The consultant said "BUT is used as an argument for our limitations... as an excuse to justify for our lack of action".





I love documenting things that I love. It just so happens that I love... clothes and make-up. In fact I had a beauty page on FB and a youtube account back in 2010 that was very short-lived! That died because I was very conscious of what the community thought of me. But what if they think I'm stupid? But what if I suck? But what if they're laughing at how stupid this whole idea is? But this. But that.

During the talk, my mind drifted (for only about a minute... I was so paying attention!) and I tried imagining how my life would be now if I worried so much about the buts. I even remember getting so much banter for taking photos in front of walls that looking back, it baffles me how I kept on going. I would usually just... stop... the moment I hear people start making fun of me. Strangely, I kept at it weekend after weekend. I enjoyed it. It made me happy that I was able to share what I love to anyone who was willing to listen (or double-tap). To me how you style an outfit is an art. It's a personality test. It's an expression. Food-lovers show us what their eating, artists show their canvases, calligraphers flaunt their beautiful wreaths... it's all the same really.

The truth is, and you've probably heard this like a billion times--you can't please everyone. People will always have something to say about you and what you're doing. They might not understand why you do it. They might not like what you're doing. They might not even like you. But guess what? Who the hell cares? YOU DO YOU. Be happy. Live. Do what you love. And know why you're doing it. If it gets you closer to what you want to achieve in life... if it gets you closer to your dreams... everyone else shouldn't matter. And when self-doubt creeps in and your brain asks you that daunting rhetoric question BUT WHAT IF YOU FAIL? Ask yourself if it really is worse than BUT WHAT IF YOU NEVER TRY?


Wearing the De Moda Wrap from Larney.


This is a reminder for me, first and foremost. To always be brave, with reason of course. I mean, don't quit your job because you're unhappy if you have absolutely nothing to fall back on. You still need to eat (and buy clothes)! Don't buy tickets to a faraway destination with your credit card if you're broke thinking YOLO (I've done that during my student life... starving for a month is not fun but I suppose I don't regret it because I'll always have memories of traveling but that's not the point! The point is to be brave but with reason! Please have savings.). Don't ignore your passion just because people find it unusual.

So go on... live! And remember... no buts.



Love,


The Buts of Life

Friday, 31 March 2017

I attended a motivational talk once and a certain video struck a chord with me. It was a video on the 'buts of life' and how the word BUT can be such a dream killer. We shield ourselves from things we fear by using this three-letter word. The consultant said "BUT is used as an argument for our limitations... as an excuse to justify for our lack of action".





I love documenting things that I love. It just so happens that I love... clothes and make-up. In fact I had a beauty page on FB and a youtube account back in 2010 that was very short-lived! That died because I was very conscious of what the community thought of me. But what if they think I'm stupid? But what if I suck? But what if they're laughing at how stupid this whole idea is? But this. But that.

During the talk, my mind drifted (for only about a minute... I was so paying attention!) and I tried imagining how my life would be now if I worried so much about the buts. I even remember getting so much banter for taking photos in front of walls that looking back, it baffles me how I kept on going. I would usually just... stop... the moment I hear people start making fun of me. Strangely, I kept at it weekend after weekend. I enjoyed it. It made me happy that I was able to share what I love to anyone who was willing to listen (or double-tap). To me how you style an outfit is an art. It's a personality test. It's an expression. Food-lovers show us what their eating, artists show their canvases, calligraphers flaunt their beautiful wreaths... it's all the same really.

The truth is, and you've probably heard this like a billion times--you can't please everyone. People will always have something to say about you and what you're doing. They might not understand why you do it. They might not like what you're doing. They might not even like you. But guess what? Who the hell cares? YOU DO YOU. Be happy. Live. Do what you love. And know why you're doing it. If it gets you closer to what you want to achieve in life... if it gets you closer to your dreams... everyone else shouldn't matter. And when self-doubt creeps in and your brain asks you that daunting rhetoric question BUT WHAT IF YOU FAIL? Ask yourself if it really is worse than BUT WHAT IF YOU NEVER TRY?


Wearing the De Moda Wrap from Larney.


This is a reminder for me, first and foremost. To always be brave, with reason of course. I mean, don't quit your job because you're unhappy if you have absolutely nothing to fall back on. You still need to eat (and buy clothes)! Don't buy tickets to a faraway destination with your credit card if you're broke thinking YOLO (I've done that during my student life... starving for a month is not fun but I suppose I don't regret it because I'll always have memories of traveling but that's not the point! The point is to be brave but with reason! Please have savings.). Don't ignore your passion just because people find it unusual.

So go on... live! And remember... no buts.



Love,


I had to go through my text messages to see when we actually kickstarted the project. It was a while back, you guys! So it all started in September when Farhanna had an epiphany over the waters on her way back to Brunei from Kuala Lumpur. She was peering through the window when the idea came to her mind to work on a very exciting project involving 12 lucky girls whom she picked to work with. We had our first meeting at Twelv--that time it was just me, her, Nuurol and Amal K--and she elaborated more on the whole concept and idea. We were already super thrilled then, and I don't think we've stopped feeling excited about it!

Each girl, together with Farhanna, would sit down together and discuss the vision we had for our piece. Even before we had the actual sit down, I knew I wanted a jumpsuit because if ever I was turned into an apparel I would either be skinny jeans or a jumpsuit. I thought about what jumpsuit I wanted--whether the pants were flared or more like cigarette trousers. I then thought about what Na Forrér signature I wanted to incorporate in my piece--songket or lace--and I obviously picked songket. 

I thought my jumpsuit needed a bit of an edge and you know I am a big fan of structure. It was so easy designing the jumpsuit because Farhanna and I were always on the same page and we always thought the same things! We both wanted big sleeves and a box shoulder! With the sleeves, we wanted it to be dramatic and I had the perfect idea (so did she... I swear we were so in-sync) to have kimono-like sleeves. Farhanna mentioned that I had an oriental look and she wasn't the first to say so! Adila had also mentioned it before! So, I was like, yeah let's give it an oriental edge. A photo popped up in my head. In 2015, when I was doing my final project for that 8-week fashion design course I was taking, this was one that was on my moodboard.




Around, I want to say November, we all had a get-together with Farhanna and she announced our themes and our colours. She divided the collection into 4 colours per our beloved national flag. In terms of theme, we were split into Red Blooded Vixen, The Enchantress, Femme Fatale and An All White Affair. Fina, May and I were grouped under Femme Fatale and we were the grey/black (sheeps) of the clan. 

After fittings, the time finally came for the campaign shoot, which was what we were all so excited about! Moderate Films was the campaign photographer and Natasya did our make-up. Femme Fatale's session was on a Sunday morning. I was there by 7AM, I think, for make-up. And it was the funnest 6 hours of my life! Haha! There was just so much laughter, creativity and direction. I enjoyed it very much.








Farhanna then flew to make us proud in London by showcasing #NFormation at London Fashion Week. On top of that, she surprised us by personalizing the names of our outfits. My oriental jumpsuit is called the Nabeela and I really love it. In all honesty, I love them all. I'd wear the Ajeera, the Disco, the Mayden, the Aliaa, the Lioness, the WeekendFrock, the Ammal, the Namaste, the Ainul, the Rube and the Siddique. My ultimate favourite though is actually the Lioness. I love it so much! 

What I love most about it all, is the sense of national pride. This Bruneian designer is collaborating with 12 local social media heads and bringing our names abroad... to London Fashion Week and to international e-commerce sites. So what are you waiting for? Go pre-order a piece and don't forget you can modest-fy the smexy ones to your own liking. Really thinking about the Lioness now.


Love,


How I got #NFormation

Friday, 24 March 2017

I had to go through my text messages to see when we actually kickstarted the project. It was a while back, you guys! So it all started in September when Farhanna had an epiphany over the waters on her way back to Brunei from Kuala Lumpur. She was peering through the window when the idea came to her mind to work on a very exciting project involving 12 lucky girls whom she picked to work with. We had our first meeting at Twelv--that time it was just me, her, Nuurol and Amal K--and she elaborated more on the whole concept and idea. We were already super thrilled then, and I don't think we've stopped feeling excited about it!

Each girl, together with Farhanna, would sit down together and discuss the vision we had for our piece. Even before we had the actual sit down, I knew I wanted a jumpsuit because if ever I was turned into an apparel I would either be skinny jeans or a jumpsuit. I thought about what jumpsuit I wanted--whether the pants were flared or more like cigarette trousers. I then thought about what Na Forrér signature I wanted to incorporate in my piece--songket or lace--and I obviously picked songket. 

I thought my jumpsuit needed a bit of an edge and you know I am a big fan of structure. It was so easy designing the jumpsuit because Farhanna and I were always on the same page and we always thought the same things! We both wanted big sleeves and a box shoulder! With the sleeves, we wanted it to be dramatic and I had the perfect idea (so did she... I swear we were so in-sync) to have kimono-like sleeves. Farhanna mentioned that I had an oriental look and she wasn't the first to say so! Adila had also mentioned it before! So, I was like, yeah let's give it an oriental edge. A photo popped up in my head. In 2015, when I was doing my final project for that 8-week fashion design course I was taking, this was one that was on my moodboard.




Around, I want to say November, we all had a get-together with Farhanna and she announced our themes and our colours. She divided the collection into 4 colours per our beloved national flag. In terms of theme, we were split into Red Blooded Vixen, The Enchantress, Femme Fatale and An All White Affair. Fina, May and I were grouped under Femme Fatale and we were the grey/black (sheeps) of the clan. 

After fittings, the time finally came for the campaign shoot, which was what we were all so excited about! Moderate Films was the campaign photographer and Natasya did our make-up. Femme Fatale's session was on a Sunday morning. I was there by 7AM, I think, for make-up. And it was the funnest 6 hours of my life! Haha! There was just so much laughter, creativity and direction. I enjoyed it very much.








Farhanna then flew to make us proud in London by showcasing #NFormation at London Fashion Week. On top of that, she surprised us by personalizing the names of our outfits. My oriental jumpsuit is called the Nabeela and I really love it. In all honesty, I love them all. I'd wear the Ajeera, the Disco, the Mayden, the Aliaa, the Lioness, the WeekendFrock, the Ammal, the Namaste, the Ainul, the Rube and the Siddique. My ultimate favourite though is actually the Lioness. I love it so much! 

What I love most about it all, is the sense of national pride. This Bruneian designer is collaborating with 12 local social media heads and bringing our names abroad... to London Fashion Week and to international e-commerce sites. So what are you waiting for? Go pre-order a piece and don't forget you can modest-fy the smexy ones to your own liking. Really thinking about the Lioness now.


Love,


Sorry for the lack of updates! I have been busy. If not for LMN, it's for my day job, and they are both equally important to me so I tighten my reigns on both horses and I beat myself up if I feel like I've been slacking in either one of them. It's not healthy, I know. I need to learn how to take a breather sometimes but there's just no rest for the wicked! I sometimes complain to my husband that I feel a little exhausted but I keep telling myself that someone somewhere is working a lot harder than I am and then I snap out of it and push even harder. 

Alhamdulillah, my March has been eventful! I was a little tired, I can't lie, but it's all good and fun! 

The Wedding KL

This trip was a little impromptu but little did I know it turned out to be the getaway I really needed. Yes I had two shows to attend, but somewhere in between I managed to squeeze in some good food and some shopping. I ate at my usual places--Shell Out and Serai--but I was most happy about my meal at Kyochon at Pavi; I absolutely loved it. I might even like it better than 4Fingers, but don't quote me on that! I could have just been extra hungry that day.

Of course I had to wear songket to a bridal fashion show!

My favourite from the FV Intimates and Robes show.

My favourite from the Mimpikita show! Just look at that angular peplum detail!

#NFormation

In conjunction with IWD2017Na Forrér launched her new collection which was a collaboration with 12 local influencers, including myself! I'll elaborate more on that and the whole journey soon, but I have to say, this has been the most exciting project I've been on. I absolutely enjoyed our girlgang meet-ups, the campaign shoot and the showcase that was held on 11th March. And a huge congratulations to Farhanna for representing Brunei at LFW2017!


Strutting our stuff at the showcase! Go pre-order the Nabeela now!

The fun bathroom shoot we did with @moderatefilms and @makeupbynatasya.

Peek-a-box

This month was also the launch of Peek-a-box Brunei Edition at the Modest Fashion Network event and I was invited for the unboxing that took place on 11th March (4-6PM and then I had to rush to RBRC for the Na Forrér showcase). Because it was the Brunei Edition, they asked me to be their March girl, so I have been pretty excited about this for a while. It was pretty surreal when I saw my face on a card first thing when I opened the box, with some beauty-related information about me that I provided the team (translated in Malay). Again, I intend to do a proper write up about this soon! (Yay! More content for my blog!) But in the mean time, do check them out on www.peek-a-box.com and their IG (@peekabox_beautybox)

I was so nervous during this event but everyone was really nice and encouraging!

Melur turns 1

How has it been a year already since Melur opened? So happy for the girls for their milestone! On the 12th of March, we had a little celebratory tea party at the store with lovely desserts and awesome goody bags (LOVE MY YELLOW NECKLACE)! I don't know about you guys, but I love the smell of that store. It smells like watermelon bubblegum all the time. There were many things I was excited about that day--I had an excuse to wear my Innai dress, the launch of Ayunne's new scarves, Rai's latest creations, Melur started selling Nita Cosmetics and Ellie Norman was there for the launch of My Apparel Zoo! On top of that Tiwin was there, don't we all just love her?

Pretty Ellie!

We-love-Tiwin-club

In the midst of all that, I managed to catch Beauty and the Beast btw. SO OBSESSED. 

So anyway, how have you been?


Love,



March Madness

Tuesday, 21 March 2017

Sorry for the lack of updates! I have been busy. If not for LMN, it's for my day job, and they are both equally important to me so I tighten my reigns on both horses and I beat myself up if I feel like I've been slacking in either one of them. It's not healthy, I know. I need to learn how to take a breather sometimes but there's just no rest for the wicked! I sometimes complain to my husband that I feel a little exhausted but I keep telling myself that someone somewhere is working a lot harder than I am and then I snap out of it and push even harder. 

Alhamdulillah, my March has been eventful! I was a little tired, I can't lie, but it's all good and fun! 

The Wedding KL

This trip was a little impromptu but little did I know it turned out to be the getaway I really needed. Yes I had two shows to attend, but somewhere in between I managed to squeeze in some good food and some shopping. I ate at my usual places--Shell Out and Serai--but I was most happy about my meal at Kyochon at Pavi; I absolutely loved it. I might even like it better than 4Fingers, but don't quote me on that! I could have just been extra hungry that day.

Of course I had to wear songket to a bridal fashion show!

My favourite from the FV Intimates and Robes show.

My favourite from the Mimpikita show! Just look at that angular peplum detail!

#NFormation

In conjunction with IWD2017Na Forrér launched her new collection which was a collaboration with 12 local influencers, including myself! I'll elaborate more on that and the whole journey soon, but I have to say, this has been the most exciting project I've been on. I absolutely enjoyed our girlgang meet-ups, the campaign shoot and the showcase that was held on 11th March. And a huge congratulations to Farhanna for representing Brunei at LFW2017!


Strutting our stuff at the showcase! Go pre-order the Nabeela now!

The fun bathroom shoot we did with @moderatefilms and @makeupbynatasya.

Peek-a-box

This month was also the launch of Peek-a-box Brunei Edition at the Modest Fashion Network event and I was invited for the unboxing that took place on 11th March (4-6PM and then I had to rush to RBRC for the Na Forrér showcase). Because it was the Brunei Edition, they asked me to be their March girl, so I have been pretty excited about this for a while. It was pretty surreal when I saw my face on a card first thing when I opened the box, with some beauty-related information about me that I provided the team (translated in Malay). Again, I intend to do a proper write up about this soon! (Yay! More content for my blog!) But in the mean time, do check them out on www.peek-a-box.com and their IG (@peekabox_beautybox)

I was so nervous during this event but everyone was really nice and encouraging!

Melur turns 1

How has it been a year already since Melur opened? So happy for the girls for their milestone! On the 12th of March, we had a little celebratory tea party at the store with lovely desserts and awesome goody bags (LOVE MY YELLOW NECKLACE)! I don't know about you guys, but I love the smell of that store. It smells like watermelon bubblegum all the time. There were many things I was excited about that day--I had an excuse to wear my Innai dress, the launch of Ayunne's new scarves, Rai's latest creations, Melur started selling Nita Cosmetics and Ellie Norman was there for the launch of My Apparel Zoo! On top of that Tiwin was there, don't we all just love her?

Pretty Ellie!

We-love-Tiwin-club

In the midst of all that, I managed to catch Beauty and the Beast btw. SO OBSESSED. 

So anyway, how have you been?


Love,



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