Feeling stagnant, millennials and a little bit about LMN

Saturday, 3 March 2018

The plan was to blog more frequently this year but to be honest with you I've been stuck in a giant rut. I've been feeling a little blue since December because I feel like my life's been stagnant. Nothing was inspiring me. I am usually the type to be excited about things but I wasn't. I wasn't excited to wake up every morning. I wasn't happy with some things at work or LMN.  I felt like a dead fish--the type that just goes with the flow. And when I feel that way, I get agitated and anxious. I felt... oddly settled. You know the feeling of being settled is really unsettling?

It's probably a Gen Y a.k.a. millennials thing. We search for meaning in whatever we do. We want to feel satisfied and like we've achieved something. We crave for recognition and tight bonds be it between colleagues or friends. Although... so many mistaken it for ungratefulness, disloyalty to the organization, narcissism, obsessed with instant gratification, laziness, lack of professionalism... and all the negative connotations you've heard and read. Sigh. Anyway, for the past few months, I lost my meaning. I wasn't satisfied with everything. I didn't feel like I achieved anything at all. I just merely existed... but that was all. Two words--panic attack.

You know, happiness is a state of mind. You have full control of whether or not you want to be happy. I am happy but I'm not content. I want bigger and greater things like everyone else. I want meaning in what I do. I want to achieve something. I want full satisfaction with my career as well as with LMN. 

In the end, I think it happened for reason. I needed a break. I needed to take a step back and figure out what I really wanted. I had time to just focus on something that I've been working on for a while but never got a chance to push out. I wanted to create. Yes, there are a billion over brands who want the same thing. Yes, I may fail. But I'd rather try than be stagnant.  I'm so nervous/afraid/excited for the launch of LMN.

Don't fear failure. Fear being in the exact same place next year as you are today.

LMN's first capsule collection, called Elements, is made up of 10 designs. It's inspired by architectural elements of spirals and stairs and embodies both the strength and fragility of women. There are long dresses, short dresses, a jumpsuit, tops, skirts and a pair of pants. The talented designer and my good friend Maricel Pamintuan has been the greatest consultant throughout this whole journey. She's so inspiring and a beautiful human being and I love her to bits! As Elements is my debut, it will be a small one i.e. there will only be three pieces for each design. But I'll update you more on it soon!


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